I am just so very tired and I don\\\'t want to be here any longer. I have struggled with many things for years and it just seems to continue. I am overwhelmed at work and can\\\'t seem to focus, I feel paralyzed at home and do nothing more than lay around before I medicate myself to get some sleep, and I have a man in my life who pulls me in, pushes me away, pulls me in and pushes me away again. I met him quite unexpectedly and he seemed like a gift from God, like it was finally my turn for happiness. Now I realize it was just a cruel joke. I am trying to find the strength to walk away from this person I love so much, but it is a struggle. I just want either the struggle or my life to stop.

Thank you for your time.