I left my husband of 15 years, about 6 years ago due to major problems in the marriage. I immediately realized my mistake, but he was angry and were not able to communicate. Over these years he has been with several women, but is now with someone he says he is serious about. But he says he will not file for divorce because he promised he would die being married to me. We were both saved, but I fear he has fallen away since being away from me. I believe in my vows said at sunset with him, he is my soulmate. Although I have not told him directly that I want him back, I know he knows from a conversation we had a year ago. I fear if I tell him, he will close the door forever, and I will have no hope. I cannot live with that, it is too painful I pray to God daily to move his heart to come back to our marriage. I love him more than life, but of course GOD is my first and deepest love. Please , Please pray with me that my marriage reconciles.