Patti,
I feel you have excellent abilities but the same incredible and creative mind that you have (which creates your photography) is what is holding you back. You need to project positive visuals for the future you want to create - you are setting up the roadblocks and as I look through your eyes into the future, I see all the hurdles you have yet to jump...time to say, enough is enough and get on with it! Time is now to use your power more positively. Blessings, Averi